In the Spring 2015 Intima piece “On Elevators,” I navigate the spatial experience of a hospital, charting how the diverse anxieties of the exam room, waiting room, break room and boardroom intersect briefly inside the cramped quarters of an elevator. In her piece “Coming out of the Medical Closet” in the Spring 2014 Intima, nursing student Angelica Recierdo similarly characterizes the medical closet as a place to gather not only supplies, but emotional strength to enter a patient’s room.
Read moreBearing Witness to Orphans, Mothers and Strangers by Sara Awan →
In the the poem, "Close to the Flowers: Notes from a Tanzanian Orphanage," Woods Nash bears witness to the plight of orphans, mothers and strangers in a faraway place. It is visceral, the plastic-ness of the sack, the dirt, the body. It is painterly. It illuminates. It is very very very sad. It is a small poem fit for a billboard.
Read moreBreathing in Metaphor and Simile by Julia Jenny Sevy
Immediately my eyes fixate on the center bottom of the photo. The figure is flesh colored and kneels in an anthropomorphic way, so we know it is human. But the truly remarkable thing about the photo is the feeling that oozes out of it, or rather, her. I feel for her yet I can barely see her. "Things She Cannot Show You" (Fall 2014 Intima) instantly causes me to contemplate language and the great limits it places on conveying an illness narrative; and in turn, how this lack of adequate language leads to intense isolation for humans experiencing, quite literally, unspeakable things.
Read moreSeeing beyond the Double Blind Study: A Reflection on Evidence-Based Medicine and Scientific Truth by Lily C. Chan
While evidence-based medicine and the double-blind study is certainly a valid lens through which to view illness and health... the marginalization of intangibles or unquantifiables such as the patient experience and physician-patient rapport is an unfortunate side effect.
Read moreString Theory: How Learning to Play the Violin Saved Me by Jason Cheung
As I ruminated over my experience of learning to play the violin, playing collaboratively, and then using those skills to heal myself and others, I found Erica Fletcher’s “Viola Strings and Other Troubles: Mentoring a Medical Student’s Artistic Endeavors” (Intima Spring 2014) a source of inspiration. Ms. Fletcher reminded me that tuning a violin or a viola string, or engaging in an artistic endeavor generally, can temper the ebb and flow of a journey of recovery through a mental illness.
Read moreAnother Reflection on the Slippery Slope of Compassion by Nina Gaby, APRN-PMH
Yesterday, in the hall of the outpatient clinic where I practice as a psychiatric nurse practitioner, my patient politely took my extended hand at the end of our session and then quickly hit the button on the wall sanitizer. The wall sanitizer had been my first impulse as well, but I refrained, worried as to the message I might give if I immediately cleansed my hand after we touched.
Read more“I am not a Role Model” by Jacob L. Freedman
One’s identity is unarguably a product of one's history and life experience. We are also the product of our parents, grandparents, and the distant branches of our family tree. Beyond the obvious genetics—thank you for the 6’2’’ genes Grandpa Frank and not-so-much-thank-you for male pattern-baldness Grandpa Tudrus—our elders serve as our role models for adulthood, parenthood, career aspirations, and everything else one could possibly think of.
Read moreCan Art Mediate the Indignity of Illness? by Claire Constance
I was born and raised in a Catholic family. This revealed itself in the landscape of my childhood in subtle ways: stray rosaries in the the silverware drawer, conversations in which saints were talked about like old neighbors (“Have you seen the rake?” “Hmm, have you talked to St. Anthony lately?”), and the occasional mass in my family’s living room, presided over by my Jesuit uncle. As a fledgling Catholic, I was also exposed to a lot of talk about dignity.
Read moreA Transmutation: Balancing the Emotional-Intellectual Constraints of Becoming a Doctor by Irène Mathieu
Eyes closed, lips pressed in a determined smile or grimace, back hunched to brace against the forlorn landscape, the central figure in Renua Giwa-Amu’s piece “Elmer” reminds me of my own medical journey. A fourth-year student on the verge of graduation, I reflect on how my entire education thus far has been dependent on the pain and illness of countless patients I have read about or cared for.
Read moreCelebrating Life: Thoughts about Blood, Flowers, Orphans, and Dating by Doug Hester
As someone who works with words some days and in medicine on others, I have always enjoyed the names of the human blood group systems. While most of us are familiar with A, B, and O nomenclature, there are over thirty other systems, mostly describing “rare blood types”—those that could dangerously react to a transfusion
Read moreLines of Vision: What Doctors vs Patients See by Catherine Klatzker
In both the fictional "Absolution" and the nonfiction "What We See When We See Each Other" we are reminded of our shared humanity, and of how much we don’t see when we see each other.
Read moreLifting the Clinical Gaze by Amy Caruso Brown
The first time I spoke of the encounter depicted in “E.B.” was during an interview for pediatric residency. The interviewer, a steely-eyed child abuse specialist, asked – not gently, but keenly – about my most difficult experience in medical school. I was surprised that what came to mind was not the drama of bullet holes and blood in the ED, interviewing a woman my own age chained to the wall of the psychiatric ED, or playing tic-tac-toe with a child with leukemia who seemed well but was expected to die from fungal disease – the kinds of gut-wrenching experiences that we swapped like war stories over beers at the end of a rotation.
Read moreOf Humans and Aliens by Andrea Hansell
“Hospitals tend to have an extraterrestrial air. Shiny structures filled with yawning expanses of slick, sterile floors, strange beeping machines, and masked creatures with gloves cutting open sleeping bodies.”
Read moreThe Intimacy of Illness: Reading Tom Whayne’s poem, “I Kiss You” by Ellen Lapointe
The experience of sitting at the bedside of a loved one as s/he comes to the end of life is utterly one-of-a-kind: unique to the people involved and the circumstances of those final days, hours, and seconds. But there are also so many common—if not universal—elements to it as well.
Read moreThe Immeasurable Cost of Infertility: Reflections on Holly Schechter’s "Genealogy" by Katherine Macfarlane
It feels like I’m always talking about infertility these days. Is infertility just more common because women are waiting longer to have children? We wait longer so we have more problems? Not necessarily.
Read moreSecrets We Keep: Gaining a Perspective on Love by Kim Drew Wright
“A Mother’s Life” is part of a linked short story collection I’m working on. The collection involves how we often lose our true selves but always come back to our essential essence in the end and how often we hide parts of ourselves from those people closest to us.
Read moreWhat's Going On Here? Watching, Listening, and Caring for Patients by Thom Schwarz
The only thing worse than a little knowledge may be a lot of knowledge. We clinicians rue the arrival of web-based medical “information” and advice which gives patients and their families the feeling they know as much—or more—than their care providers.
Read moreSeeing God in Man: Finding the Divine Manifest in a Cell or an Organ by Julia Elizabeth McGuinness
One of my most talented, passionate teachers in medical school, a professor of histology, frequently challenged us to “see God in man,” the divine manifest in the smallest cells and in the largest organs. Regardless of how one interprets “God” based upon personal religious or spiritual beliefs, my professor’s charge speaks to the very human need to search for a greater purpose in nature and in our own physical realities.
Read moreThe Urinal Prank: How a Good Laugh Brings Us Together by Julie Rea
The healing nature of personal connection is evident in “Caretaking.” In my short story “Numb,” I also see the salutary effects of the simplest kinds of human contact. In “Numb,” it is only by listening to the frustrations of another person with a spinal cord injury that the protagonist is able to attain an acceptance of her own losses.
Read moreOn Bearing Witness: How it can be a source of healing for both the giver and receiver by Jafeen Ilmudeen
It is difficult to bear witness, to allow in the present moment, to grasp the full extent of suffering, memories, and loss. However, doing so can also be a source of healing for both the giver and receiver, a means to close old wounds, to offer hope, and to conceive life anew.
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